Aspiring Poet, heartfelt thoughts.I Have Dystonia, bipolar, and an Avid Southern Gospel Music fan

  Oh boy, anxiety. Let’s talk about the glorious mess that is anxiety and how it differs from your everyday nervousness. Spoiler alert: one is like having a mildly annoying mosquito buzzing around your ear, and the other is like being trapped in a room with a swarm of killer bees. Fun times, right? So, picture this: you're about to give a presentation. Normal nerves are those little butterflies flapping around in your stomach. They're there, but you can still get through your presentation without wanting to crawl under the podium and stay there forever. You might sweat a bit, maybe stumble over a word or two, but overall, you survive. You might even pat yourself on the back afterward, thinking, "Hey, that wasn't so bad!" Now, enter clinical anxiety. This isn’t just butterflies—it’s like having a full-on Jurassic Park T-Rex stomping around in your head. Your heart races like it’s training for the Olympics, your mind spirals into a vortex of "What ifs,"

 It is turning into the Dog Days of Summer as they say here   105 I think yesterday, I can't stand the heat. I prefer temperatures in the teens and twenties and I know I am in the minority , but that is Ok because I am used to it. I think my whole life I have been in the Minority because my brain doesn't work like anyone else has seen     I had my first therapy session. It was interesting we will see in the long run if it helps or not. Some say it has helped some say it has not. The thing everyone finds most interesting about my symptoms is that when I wake up in the morning it takes me awhile to figure out where and what time period in which I exist. This can be from ten minutes one morning to an hour the next. I wake up wanting and thinking that I am going to visit my grandfather and we are going to watch baseball, That is why I Love baseball He knew it well!, there is a great amount of strategy that goes into it that if not for him I would have never learned,    but the on